Updates From The Edge

I am so sorry for slacking this past week.  It’s been busy but I just haven’t had much to say or know how to spit it all out, I guess.  I’ve been kind of blah and I’m not sure why.  That’s a lie, I do sort of know why.

However, I will update you all in one sitting.

My pool team had our big tournament (Regionals) the weekend of June 7 & 8th and WE ARE GOING TO VEGAS BABY!!!!  That’s right folks, we will be competing in the Nationals!  This would make it the third time our team has made it to Vegas, and as I’ve mentioned before, each time we’ve gone someone on the team has been pregnant!  2004; I was pregnant, 2006; both my sister and I were pregnant and this year my sister and a girlfriend of one of my teammates is pregnant.  Makes me wonder who it will be in 2010?

The news of my Uncle has improved some (for now).  He went in for surgery over the weekend to help unclog his bowels, which were causing him an unbearable amount of pain over the last few weeks.  He is feeling much better and is excited that he can go home relatively pain free.  As for the cancer, it’s still there.

Father’s Day came and went.  We had a big family barbeque, where we gathered all the parents, siblings and wee ones to one location.  We did the same for Mother’s Day and I think we will keep this a tradition as this way, we can actually spend time with the parents on these days and not have to squeeze different locations all into one day or spread them out over the weekend.  Since all the families get along, why not?

Tuesday I turned another year older.  Have I learned anything in the last year?  Most definitely.  I am actually making some life changes that I will save for another post as they are still in the works.

As for why I am feeling a bit blah, well for starters this has been a tough year emotionally for me with the 10th anniversary of Mikey’s passing, I’m not a fan of my birthday either and haven’t been since I turned 15.  My great aunt, whom I was VERY close with (she considered my sister and I to be the grandchildren she never had) ended up in the hospital on my birthday.  My parents never told me until the next day as they didn’t want to ruin my party.  

I had to absorb the news that she had uterine cancer which spread and caused her to swell terribly.  She wanted to see me but didn’t want me to see her as she wanted me to remember her as she was.  It broke her heart not to have me there, but it was something she felt in her heart was the right thing to do.  I was devastated and heartbroken, but fully respected her wishes.  

She passed away two days later.  I couldn’t bring myself to go to her funeral and have yet to visit her grave.  Friday marks 18 years since she passed away.  Her passing threw me into a whirlwind of emotions and a depression which lasted for quite a few years.

So, that is why I feel blah.  I have more to write on the subject of my great aunt as things of a supernatural nature have happened to me since her passing that deserve a post of their own.

To lift my spirits, I think I’m going to open the windows, make funny faces at the fish, tickle a couple of goofy kids, turn on some danceable music and have some coffee.