What I should be doing today is making the Birthday Boy his b-day breakfast, maybe some pancakes with a few candles poking out the top, with some juice and any of his other favorites on the side and either have it waiting for him on the kitchen table or serve it to him in bed.
But I can’t.
I can’t because I don’t know what his favorites are.
This is something I have to live with on a daily basis. All of these unanswered questions that a parent should know about their kids. The simple things I will never, ever know.
I wonder about the small things all the time. What would he look like? How tall would he be? Would he have a girlfriend? What would his voice sound like? Would he be one of those kids who aren’t afraid to tell their Mother’s they love them in front of their friends? I would like to think he would be. How big would his hugs be now?
Oh, his hugs. How I miss them. His hugs always made me feel like it really was going to be ok.
What I wouldn’t do for another one of his wonderful hugs. Only this time, I’d be sure to never let go.
I want to wish Mikey a Happy 15th Birthday today!
I love you more than words can say.
Loving you always,
For those of you who don’t know the full story and care to, you can read it all Here
October 21, 2008 at 2:16 am Cheeky